“Though I often hesitated and doubted much before I went, I never doubted after my going of its being His will; and though men, who judge of things only by the success they seem to have, have taken occasion for my disgraces and sufferings, to judge of my calling and to run it down as error, illusion and imagination; it is that very persecution, and a multitude of strange crosses it has drawn upon me, which have confirmed me in the certainty of its truth and validity.” – Mme Guyon
Life here in Papua New Guinea is amazing. So very different from the Sahara and is a different kind of M.O.N.! I never thought that I would ever find a place that FELT like home (whatever "home" means)...but I have. Especially after returning to Chad and not feeling quite "at home", I had pretty much given up on the notion that the place existed. But the peace that is in my heart, in being here, is indescribable and I can only say that it is the Father's grace. Through joys and excitements, as well as trials, new friends, culture stress, learning to drive on the wrong side of the road, language learning (my third!), break-ins, and everything else that happens...my heart still tells me that I am home.
What took me so long to realize this?! I can think of no other reason but that I have learned to be content in my Heavenly Father and seek Him in all things. I rest in each moment knowing that He will not let me go. (That, and the highlands’ mountains around Ukarumpa look like they could be in a National Geographic article…oh wait, they are!) A part of my heart remains in Africa, and always will; it is my "heart-home". But the rest of me seems to have gathered itself from the far corners of the globe where I've been searching, and settled itself in a little valley, on a tiny group of islands, just north of Australia.
“In Christ Alone” by Keith Getty and Stuart Townend, is a song that has been my theme for this year, as the Lord keeps bringing it across my path. The last verse in particular, is what I want to leave you with, this is my peace:
No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow'r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow'r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow'r of Christ I'll stand.
The view from my kitchen window, of the horse paddock and surrounding fields.
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